econs test!chem test!
i was so paranoid and bad-tempered last few days coz of stress i gueesss. lack of sleep oso.even if i sleep i cant sleep well..
everything almost drove mi crazy.
now that it's over,i m kinda relieved.but it will start again next week.chem test maths test.this battle is never ending.

i feel pressurised during training.i m dreading A div.willl i be in the team not?i dun think i will be able to take the stress.haven been on form recently.i guess no one will be there for mi.everyone will be busy.who give a damn about mi?lol

i really hope that i can get over the matter.what's most impt is not to think so much bah. my thoughts always run wild.cant control.

i know i m less important to him now.he wont have time for mi.will his feelings for mi fade.he will be sick of my unreasonableness or jus simply sick of being with mi.will i be able to take this?i wanna remain important to him.once my importance to him decrease,i cant tolerate.he's veri impt to mi and that's the problem.

i know it's okay to tlk to classmates.to be closer to them and all.i envy him bah.

i envy those couples who are damn focused on their studies but sadly i cant.he distracts mi a lot especially when we quarrel it's almost impoosible to study. sigh i still remember when we quarrel last time,he doesnt react like how he does now.now is more bochap and let mi be that kinda attitude.cant be bothered with mi le.everything else is more important than mi.i jus have to get used to all these and not be possessive.i have to accept that he doesnt have time for mi!who am i ?NOTHING.

i cant manage my stress.i really hoope he will be there when i need him.but i shouldnt expect too much.i wanna be there for him as much as i can but i dunno what i can do for him when i m stressed too.i will end up giving him troubles.dun want to be his burden.dun wan him to not like me.


maybe i shall learn keep everything to myself can save some trouble for him and my friends.jiayou kaihwee.u've got to learn to focus on ur lousy studies! jiayou!